So THIS is How Life is Supposed to Be!

Oh my GOODNESS!! Blog friends! I cannot even tell you how much fun I've had the last few days! Weeks even! Oh glory me! I don't know why I've been letting life slip by me for so many years, when I could've grabbed it by the throat long ago and said, "ENTERTAIN ME!" Instead, I've been buried in my own head just waiting for something to happen. No, no my friends. That is not how you get your kicks and giggles in life. That is how you ride in the back seat as it drives along without your control. Now, I'm sure you're wondering how I've managed to come to this conclusion! Now, I'll tell you!
Most of you know (well, actually all of you) that I am now 21 years of age. Whoop! I'm officially official!  No longer a non-entity who gets ripped off when it comes to insurance. Hello discounts! In any case, my actual birthday was actually pretty uneventful. I slept for most of it actually, and worked for the other portion. Which was actually awesome because I have some awesome girls who seem to love me and who can ask for more?! They surprised me with an Oreo cake which was delicious! I actually didn't even realize it was for me until I saw that it said 'Happy Birthday Sidney' on it! How thick can you get, really? It was almost pathetic that I had no clue! But those girls are so sweet! T-Bone and G-Money got me some Mac and Cheese and A1 steak sauce (because that is one of my favorite things EVER) and a gift card! Oh my gosh! How sweet are they!? They also offered to take me to lunch that day, but really! A girl can only get spoiled so much before she actually can tell she's rotting! But, I did go with them and laughed my head off for most of the time! How I love my gangsta girls! I also went to dinner with my family! Oh how sweet! I love my family!! We enjoyed a lovely dinner and CPK and just had a dandy time! I went to B&N and got a new book so that was awesome too! So that is how you beat the Birthday Blues in case you're wondering!! It's great!!
Now! Onto the main event of this blog! Since we're all friends on Facebook, you've seen what I've been up to this week. Let's start with Wednesday! In fact, that is when this week started to get interesting! I have this awesome friend Matt! (Hello Matt!) Well, he is very much a boy in the fact that he is always getting a new toy, weather it be a car, a bicycle, or this week, motorcycle! The last time he came over to my house with a motorcycle, it took him forever to convince me that it was okay to get on it! It was a great first ride! The bike was slow and well... slow! This time, however, it was fast and FREAKING AWESOME! Though very cold. It was cold the first time though.. in any case, it was a blast and a total rush! He brought it over and said, "So, do you wanna..?" and before he could finish the sentence, I said,"I totally want to ride it!" I've got to tell you, it's sort of crazy riding off on the back of a motorcycle while your parents are watching! It made me feel like a wild child and that was a thrill!
Now Thursday was an equally thrilling day! This time, I went out with the fantastic guy who works with my sister. I'm pretty sure this wasn't a date. This was two friends hanging out for the first time up at West Mountain. Shooting guns! Yes, that is right! I shot a shot gun! If you've even wondered what it's like to shoot a shot gun, just have someone punch your arm right where your shoulder connects near your collar bone. Then repeat. It hurts like a mother, but when you knock a clay pigeon out of the air on your last shot of the day,  it is VERY rewarding! It's also very rewarding when you have a mannequin head that you can name after the back room troll! Yes, she was the first thing I shot. Right in the face. Needless to say, it felt great! Revenge without actually getting revenge! Anyways! We laughed about little jokes, me trying to throw clay pigeons, and him throwing the troll head up and shooting it right out of the air while bits of her hair drifted away in the wind. It was sooo fun! Well! I was pretty mad because he was talking about going fishing though I wasn't actually invited. Long story. We had to cut our day short because I was supposed to have a meeting with the bishop then couldn't get in the church! I waiting for 15 minutes, then gave up. I texted him and told him I was mad that this wasn't happening and we didn't get to hang out more. So he told me he was up at the Spanish Fork Res fishing and that I was more then welcome to come. So I did! And though I didn't cast the line (he did) I caught a fish like 30 seconds later! Sweet! Poor fish swallowed the hook but we did let him go. The strange thing is, I totally shocked myself by staying up there for two hours just watching him and his friend fish. What is this?? I would never sit on a curb for 2 hours ever! And yet, I did. I wonder...? But basically, I was feeling pretty pleased with myself for motorcycles, guns, and fish! This is so out of my box! Who wouldn't be proud?
Anyways! The last thing I wanted to share is that Sirius finally passed safety and emissions! Hoorah! He's still not registered.. so I can't drive him yet, but still! One step closer!
Okay! I've been blogging for forever and One Tree Hill is calling my name! (It's a phase, I hope..) Love you all and may the force be with you!

Birthday Blues

Oh my goodness, it has been far too long since my last post. I have been far, far too busy dealing with backroom trolls and grumpy people, birthday plans, and trying to get Sirius Black on the road. He is being difficult, and so is the bank! They were supposed to call me back yesterday, and I have yet to hear from them!! I just don't understand. It is very important, the things the people who work at backs do, and when someone calls, they should call back. This is all I'm saying. It's very frustrating.
As you notice, this blog post is called Birthday Blues. Yes, this is true. I have the blues that only comes around your birthday. No, I'm not having a midlife crisis or freaking out about my age, but it is more about the past. This is not the direction that anybody should be looking in when their birthday is approaching. At least, not at 21. No sir-ee. But, things have changed so much over the last year. Well, I used  to have friends over for a movie at least. I would bake a VERY misshapen cake, and we would laugh, blow out the candles, and Voila! Happy Birthday! Not to mention I have a very awesome twin and cousin that I get to share this wonderful day with! Back in those days, I would request the day before, of, and after my birthday off just so I could hang out with my friends the entire time. Not this year though. I'm going to work, which isn't awful at all because I get to hang out with my pricing girls, Kat Kat, T-bone, G-Money, Dee-stroyer, and our Fearless Leader. Though I'm not very close to these girls, they've become a few of the most important people. It's nice to look forward to seeing people every day, knowing there are friendly faces and sarcastic comments awaiting you. It's a nice thing to look forward to. But, there were different things to look forward to way back when. Midnight phone calls from friends saying "IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!! Now, was I the first to tell you?!" It's things like this that make me want to go back and do my entire life over again. Choose different friends who stick by my side, or just not put all of my eggs in one basket with one friend, ignoring all of the other really great friends I had and under appreciated. Oh, how stupid the things we do.
I feel like I always have to say this because I get into a funk and feel like I'm discrediting the friends that I have now that I love dearly and would sail the earth for. (Which is impressive because I hate boats.) Times are different. We're older. Some of you are married, others engaged, and the rest dating someone seriously. Our priorities are different now. We worry about car payments, insurance, phone bills, rent. We don't worry about birthdays unless they're our own, or our significant others. Which is very depressing. If only, life were simpler like it was back then. Cakes, ice cream, movies, easy things you know? At this point in time, even celebrating something as exciting as my 21st birthday, I'm not having a party? Why you may ask? Because of the reasons stated above. Throw in that all of my friends have jobs and DING DING DING we have a winner. There a few that I think would make it and I love you for it. So much! Though, since nothing is set in stone, things could still change, right?
I am very frustrated about something at the moment. It will brief, I swear! You know how you grow up learning that 'Sharing is Caring'? I believe in that very much so.  But, there are a few things I cannot share even if my life depended on it. My number one? My books. My books are my life. I have invested too much time and money to loan them out and have them returned destroyed or not returned at all. I'm very selective to who I loan them out to, if at all. The next thing, is my scrapbooking stuff. My paper (which can't actually be borrowed), paint, (which is also not borrowed), paint brushes (which can sometimes be borrowed, depending on the brush). You see my point? These are things that if you 'lend out' you don't get back. You just lose it. Poof. Gone.
Now, I try to share my things. I'm selfish enough about myself, so worldly things shouldn't be part of that equation. But, once you've asked to borrow something from my two important lists, I will usually say no. You can't say no to family, right? Or you're suddenly even more selfish. It doesn't matter how many other things you've said yes to, that one NO is like dynamite. It blows everything else out of the water. So, then you get that feeling like you don't have the choice to say no. This is the same feeling you get at work when someone who is not your boss asks you to do something. No matter how much you want to shove it in their face and say HAHAHAHA no, you can't.. and that is something I loathe! Grr. Okay, venting over.
That I think is it for the evening. Though I do have shout out to a special person whom I adore. Father of my two children who are Lucian Atem Gerber McClain the second and Kezlin Rae Gerber McClain, you are my hero! You are such a strong man and I love you to bits! Let me know if you need a delicious ear and I will find one just for you! Or if you just need a Pokemon buddy (I want to start from the very beginning by the way!) then I am your woman! You are brave! You are strong! You are amazing! Don't you ever forget it okay?!
Goodnight my followers! As always, thank you for lending your eyes!

These Are A Few of My Favorite Things

This was another great day! No, that wasn't sarcasm that you're detecting! Neither was that! Or that! Hey! This is just going to go around in circles if you just accept it was an AWESOME day! Sheesh. It's hard to please you people. As I was saying, today was great! Since my post yesterday was so doom and gloom, I thought I would post one about the things I'm grateful for to sort of counteract that last one, though I still stand by it and believe it to be very true and necessary, unfortunately. But as I said, we're moving past that today to things that make me so happy I would love to explode into a bunch of little tiny pieces, each with so much happiness we could obtain world peace! That is a LOT of little pieces huh? I think so too!
The first thing that put me in a super good mood today was work. Weird huh? Who can be excited by work? Well! I can! Why? Hours! As we all know, hours equal money. Money equals mustang in my case. Plus! My voice is finally almost back to normal. Just a hint of rasp here and there. Plus, as I said before, I love the girls I work with! I swear, even if I'm not part of the conversation, I'm laughing just listening to the other girls. If I could remember half of the stuff that's been said then believe me, it would be posted. But, I can't, so you'll just have to trust me. If you're one of the girls on the pricing team, you know! I love having inside jokes with people. Especially if they're about trolls. Biiiig happy face here.
Thing numero dos that makes me happy is exercise. That might not be completely true since a lot of the time, I hate it. But today, I was thrilled about it! Getting a nice long workout that makes your sore is just reassuring that you're doing at least one thing right! People, I've been sore since Monday, and my job requires me to be on my knees, then back up, and back down. Gosh, my legs feel like fire after only thirty minutes of that! But as I said! It's good to know it's working. Unless you're really hurt yourself, then you should probably go see a doctor. Otherwise, it's just no pain, no gain!
Event C is dinner! Oh, who could ever hate dinner!? I never knew such a person, and if I ever meet them, we shant be friends! Just kidding! The reason dinner is so happy-making to me is because I get to spend time with my family. It's just twice as good if the television can remain off the entire time. Also, it makes me think of good times like when we're on vacation and out eating. If we're friends on Facebook, I have pictures to prove this. In Oahu two years ago, we went to The Cheesecake Factory. Now, when you have a family as large as ours, it's easy to order food. Why? You all decide what sounds good and then decide to share! I have the best picture of everybody holding out their forks to me with a morsel of their dinner for me to try! That is what dinner felt like tonight. Not that we had anything special. My mom and I were craving pizza. My dad, Asian Bowls, my little brother wanted spring rolls, and my little sister just had to pick one of those three.
Usually when people make different dinners at my house, we're all there at different times. So tonight when we were all making different things (the only common thing we had was salad) it felt just like Cheesecake Factory. Each of us saying 'Oh, this is so good! You have to try!' and 'I saved half of this for you! Have a taste!' It's these little things that make me so grateful to have a family, and have the family that I do. I love them all very much and it makes me feel so much closer to them when we spend time together without arguing or anything like that.
The last thing that was just the cherry on top was Meet the Robinsons. I don't care if you hate Pixar or Disney. This is one of the best movies out there! Every times I watch it, I get tears in my eyes and want to hug my family and hike Everest all at once! It's so motivational. Unfortunately, I only got to watch half of it tonight and it's going to bug me until I can finish it! No matter though! We ' Keep Moving Forward' right??
Anyways! Those are just a few things that makes me happy! There are a ton more (including you FABULOUS people who read my witty and sometimes whiny blog!) I appreciate you and your support and hope you have a pleasant evening!

If You're Stressed and You Know It, Raise Your Hand

There is a saying about the calm before the storm. That was yesterday in relation to my emotions anyways. It was one of those days when you feel like you can do so much and anything is possible. Today, however, it seems to all be crashing down at once in such an overwhelming way that I literally had to put on my running shoes, despite the cough/cold, and run. It's amazing what a little prayer and a run in the freezing cold weather will do for you and how you think. Processing information is a basic skill we develop in life, and when you feel like you can't process that information, your brain refuses to think rationally and even attempt to process that information at all. So, that brings primal instincts, fight or flight. Since this is not a situation I can fight myself out of, all that is left is to run. Normally, I am not an advocate of running from your problems. Sometimes, however that is all you can do. Sensory overload isn't the best way to fight yourself out of situation because hello, SENSORY OVERLOAD. All I know is that sometimes it helps.
Now, I'm sure you're wondering what the stress is all about. We're going to just scratch the surface of that. What is usually a stressful thing that people deal with? Money of course. Lately, my hours at work have been cut in half. If you remember, I bought a car about two weeks ago. That really wasn't an issue, except insurance was due two weeks before I bought that car. So all of my savings where depleted to naught. It is very stressful trying to figure out how to pay for things when you have NO MONEY at all. Luckily, I have loving parents who let me live at home. But paying as much as I do for gas, and how little I'm working now, it's going to be really REALLY tough to make ends meet. Honestly, I think that once I've gotten a few paychecks, I'll be a lot less stressed. The only reason this feels so overwhelming is because I've been broke for more than a month. Thank goodness my birthday is coming up soon! I know just what I need!
Next, I'm very frustrated at a few of my friends. Okay. This is a lie. I'm frustrated at one. It started out as one, then it just builds and builds and then you get a whole list of people that you're peeved with. The story? I'll share it. I posted something on Facebook (I swear this will end our world) and a friend of mine (No! You're not one of the people I'm irked with) agreed with what I said. Another person did not. Now, I am all for DEBATE, not childish arguments that people fling petty insults around trying to hurt feelings just to make a point. This, clearly, was not a debate or I would be thrilled. This was a person being hurtful to a good friend of mine in a very unnecessary way. So much so that comments had to be deleted. Thank goodness I was asleep for this, otherwise I may have had a much hotter head.
Here is the thing about Facebook: You pick your friends and who you want around and who you want to share your thoughts and opinions with. Now, if one of my friends posts something on MY page in regards to something I've posted and someone else wants to post something to that friend, be respectful!! You two might not be friends, but I am with both of you and I will NOT stand for you insulting one another. It is childish and pathetic. If I encounter it again, I'll delete the person who threw the first punch and refuse to speak to you. This is a very serious thing. The world is bad enough and I won't watch my friends tear each other apart.
Lastly, I'm very stressed about sharing a car again. The only reason this is, is because I know I will be paying the majority of the gas. Hopefully, I'll be able to have Sirius out on the road by next week. In the mean time, trying to coordinate schedules and split gas evenly is going to be a giant sliver in my butt.
Gah. That is all the ranting I can handle today. I'm sorry this post was so morose but really, it's my blog and I'll post what I want, dang it! Have a pleasant night, folks!

Adventures of the Ill Ridden

Blog followers! It has been almost a week since my last post! Okay. We're still a few days away but still! Since I am on the road to recovery, I've decided what better way to be productive than to say hello to my friends and family! I've missed you all so much! It's been quite a week though.
As I'm sure all of you know, I've been flirting with a cold or a flu for 6 days.  Oh, and what a long 6 days it has been. I was in and out of work, and in between the times I was asleep, I was watching movies while coughing up my lungs and begging the fever to just go away. Today though is the first day I've woken up (even though I had only slept 3 hours last night) ready to just get things done! Just hanging around the house is great when it's a choice. Though, when you're sick and have hardly enough energy to wipe your nose, it's such a pain. Especially when things like laundry or earning money for new cars is weighing on your mind. Though, I have to say, it was so very tricky to not fall asleep during every movie, though I'm pretty sure I did through most of them. ( There are a few I just feel like I want to share with the world, and will do so in a moment) The funniest part of this was the fever dreams. Oh, fevers. You can be so miserable but create so much entertainment. This dream was almost prophetic in a way. I dreamed that I made a salad, but the salad was money. Yes, the salad was supposed to be made that way. Only, I put a few $20 bills in it when I didn't mean to and didn't realize until I was eating it, then thought, 'Oh. I should make sure to pull out the $20 next time'. How strange is that?! The weirdest thing, is the next night, my sisters dog slept in my room. When I woke up, he'd eaten a $20 bill and part of another right out of my wallet. Oh, he got into so much trouble.
Anyways! I watched a TON of movies in the last week. Let me see if I can think of the titles of all of them.
Never Been Kissed, North & South, Wuthering Heights, My Fake Fiance, every episode of Melissa and Joey, Forks Over Knives, Super Size Me, Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, Mansfield Park, It's A Boy Girl Thing, Bridesmaids, and a ton of Saturday Night Live. I think that is all... The ones I am totally in LOVE with right now are North & South, Sense and Sensibility, and Mansfield Park.
If you're a girl and you love Jane Austen, or even a boy and you love Jane Austen, then you will love these three movies. True, only two of them are Austen, but the other, North & South, reminds me so much of it. It was an absolutely breathtaking movie. The one I watched was a 4 hour version. 4 Parts made in 2004. Dang it if the male lead in that movie isn't one of the most smokin' men ever. Though, he looks a lot like Daniel Radcliff. Though I guess Daniel would look like him since he is older. Anyways. I totally recommend this movie if you love sappy/sad/romantic/headstrong heroine movies.
The other movie I want to talk about is Wuthering Heights. WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH EMILY BRONTE?! Couldn't she have taken a few pointes from her sister and come up with a happier story with a less wishy washy heroine and an anti-hero hero who is not so evil!?!? No, I guess not. It was still good, but I don't know. It doesn't compare to Jane Eyre or like novels.
Oh! Really quickly! If you're interested in Forks Over Knives, it is a documentary about eating a plant based diet. It will change your life. =)
Okay! Well, it is time for me to finish my laundry and all that jazz! I will come up with more entertaining stuff later!!