There is a saying about the calm before the storm. That was yesterday in relation to my emotions anyways. It was one of those days when you feel like you can do so much and anything is possible. Today, however, it seems to all be crashing down at once in such an overwhelming way that I literally had to put on my running shoes, despite the cough/cold, and run. It's amazing what a little prayer and a run in the freezing cold weather will do for you and how you think. Processing information is a basic skill we develop in life, and when you feel like you can't process that information, your brain refuses to think rationally and even attempt to process that information at all. So, that brings primal instincts, fight or flight. Since this is not a situation I can fight myself out of, all that is left is to run. Normally, I am not an advocate of running from your problems. Sometimes, however that is all you can do. Sensory overload isn't the best way to fight yourself out of situation because hello, SENSORY OVERLOAD. All I know is that sometimes it helps.
Now, I'm sure you're wondering what the stress is all about. We're going to just scratch the surface of that. What is usually a stressful thing that people deal with? Money of course. Lately, my hours at work have been cut in half. If you remember, I bought a car about two weeks ago. That really wasn't an issue, except insurance was due two weeks before I bought that car. So all of my savings where depleted to naught. It is very stressful trying to figure out how to pay for things when you have NO MONEY at all. Luckily, I have loving parents who let me live at home. But paying as much as I do for gas, and how little I'm working now, it's going to be really REALLY tough to make ends meet. Honestly, I think that once I've gotten a few paychecks, I'll be a lot less stressed. The only reason this feels so overwhelming is because I've been broke for more than a month. Thank goodness my birthday is coming up soon! I know just what I need!
Next, I'm very frustrated at a few of my friends. Okay. This is a lie. I'm frustrated at one. It started out as one, then it just builds and builds and then you get a whole list of people that you're peeved with. The story? I'll share it. I posted something on Facebook (I swear this will end our world) and a friend of mine (No! You're not one of the people I'm irked with) agreed with what I said. Another person did not. Now, I am all for DEBATE, not childish arguments that people fling petty insults around trying to hurt feelings just to make a point. This, clearly, was not a debate or I would be thrilled. This was a person being hurtful to a good friend of mine in a very unnecessary way. So much so that comments had to be deleted. Thank goodness I was asleep for this, otherwise I may have had a much hotter head.
Here is the thing about Facebook: You pick your friends and who you want around and who you want to share your thoughts and opinions with. Now, if one of my friends posts something on MY page in regards to something I've posted and someone else wants to post something to that friend, be respectful!! You two might not be friends, but I am with both of you and I will NOT stand for you insulting one another. It is childish and pathetic. If I encounter it again, I'll delete the person who threw the first punch and refuse to speak to you. This is a very serious thing. The world is bad enough and I won't watch my friends tear each other apart.
Lastly, I'm very stressed about sharing a car again. The only reason this is, is because I know I will be paying the majority of the gas. Hopefully, I'll be able to have Sirius out on the road by next week. In the mean time, trying to coordinate schedules and split gas evenly is going to be a giant sliver in my butt.
Gah. That is all the ranting I can handle today. I'm sorry this post was so morose but really, it's my blog and I'll post what I want, dang it! Have a pleasant night, folks!
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