Friday, October 26, 2012

The Worlds Tiniest Violin, Playing the Worlds Saddest Song

Woah! It's been a while! Well, it usually has been a while. I know, I know. It's very obvious that it's been a long time. Let me just state the obvious. Anyways. I've been working my not so little tush off for weeks now. I just can't believe how much I sleep and how much I work. It is quite disgusting. My life is so belittled. I swear. There is no meaning to it anymore. Nothing good comes out of it besides work ethic, which I already have. That, and my sweet pricing team. Wait. Did i say sweet?? I meant devious and hilarious team. They are the only thing I have to look forward to now. It's little, but it's something.
Now switching gears. Sort of. You know how everyone seems to have such exciting lives and yours is just blah?? Well, if you have that feeling, you're probably right. That seems harsh, but I have that feeling and I KNOW that this is true. When you're living vicariously through others, you know you're in trouble. We should be so excited to lead our own lives, but somehow, we lose that joy. We should be able to make our own fun, but there is only so much fun you can make when all of your friends work or have school and you have sentenced yourself to the lonely life of work. But, you need money to live, and for money you need work. Unless you get a massive inheritance. I wish that was the case.
I don't know if this is just me, but there are certain friends I have (I use that term loosely) that when good things happen for them, though I'm very happy for them, it breaks my heart a little bit. Only because I wish there was something good happening for me. I feel very grateful that I have the few good friends that I do. Also for my family. I am lucky on that front. As am I more fortunate than some others as far as my living situation. But for my personal life, I really REALLY wish that things were progressing. Since I lost all of my social graces and skills amidst all of the moving, I really don't know how to do... well, ANYTHING anymore. Now, all my life consists of is all of my shows, books, work, and sleep. Those are good things mostly. Although, I wish I could add concerts, or boyfriends into that sentence.
Before you judge me for all of my shows, I wasn't ever into television much until I moved to Spanish Fork. Or maybe a few years after that. Now, that is one of the things I have to look forward to. I get to once again, live though lives of other people. Even if they are fictional.
I have more that I would like to say concerning people at both of my jobs, the elections (bless us), and a few other things, but you know?? My mind is elsewhere. I'm slightly distracted this evening. As always, thanks for reading (if you even got through the first paragraph.) and I am very grateful to you for making this rating worth anything. Have a lovely evening and pray it doesn't snow tomorrow!!

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