Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Why I Blog

I am not happy tonight. In fact, I have angry tears. Why? Well let me put it this way, if you don't want to know what is going on and how I see it, then click out of this link now. I don't want you to come back later and see that people have said,"Wow. She is so whiny and complains all the time." And if you feel that way, then you don't know me. At all. I am a generally positive person. I post a lot about the things on my mind which weigh everyone down. I like to work it out on metaphoric paper. It's cathartic. Sort of like the therapy I wish I could afford. The only thing is, I don't have people telling me how to solve my problems. I write them down here, examine them, and make my choices from there.
Angry. Angry that because I unfriended Fernando (yes, I used his real name. He hurt my feelings, so he doesn't earn a nickname.) he decided to lash out at me. Guess WHY I unfriended him? We don't talk. We aren't friends. We just worked together. I didn't really care to have him keep tabs on my life, and we don't talk at all for me to care about his life either. But, he was peeved about it because this is the message I received, and the inspiration for tonight's post:

Thanks for defriending me. I for sure won't miss you complaining about every little thing about life. Good riddance. I was about to do that you just beat me to it. Now someone else can take your negative energy.

Yeah, that happened. Feels like jr high all over again, when Brad told me my fat rolls were disgusting. I was thin then! Anyhow, I try to keep a lot of what I am thinking to myself, but I tend to put them down here. Newsflash: This blog is not being forced on ANY of you. You have the option to not read it. This is so much like the situations that happened at my last job. People calling to complain that they are in a lease they said they didn't read and now they have payments they weren't expecting. Well guess what. I didn't make you go to the store, put your banking information on the application, along with your social security number, and everything else. I didn't make you sign the contract without reading it. It's not my fault that you didn't ask questions about what you were getting into and took the sales reps word for it. (Sales reps are there for money, okay?? Get the full story before blindly giving out your personal information.) But, the option to use the financing is there. Just like this blog. You don't HAVE to read it. If you don't like what you read, then don't come back. I don't write this stuff solely for your entertainment. I am writing because I want to. They say a good writers write what they know. And guess what? I know what happened today, or whatever day I wrote the post. I write how I feel. Freedom of speech is still a thing, right??
Some of them are updates. Some of them are just funny stories to make you laugh. Other times, I had a really bad day and I needed to get it off my chest. I don't know how many people actually read them. Though having people read it is awesome. I write because I love it.
Now. I don't expect that all of you will believe this, but I am quite the same person on here as I am in real life. However, I have the tact to say things when I need to, or hold my tongue when it is appropriate. However, if I am able to be honest about something, I will be.
Now, a comment was made by someone, that they didn't know who would date me, or how I would get asked on dates because my posts sound so angry. Once again. Not very many people read this. Most of them are again, family members. And while marrying a family member is common in West Virginia,  guess what? I am not in West Virginia. I am in good ole Virginia. The rest of my family is in Utah, or Arizona. And my one uncle in Guam. Back to the topic. The people I date, the people I talk to, they KNOW me. They have seen me in high times and hard times. Most of them are there for me...to make me laugh. I LOVE THEM FOR IT. I might not say it as much as I should, but I do try to and let them know. 
Granted, my list of friends is pretty small. That is because I am picky about my friends. I don't need friends who make me cry or make me feel bad about myself. Nobody does. Who wants to talk to someone who acts like they are just tolerating you? Also, I have an amazing family. They are the best friends anyone can have. They take your side, they support you. And they love you unconditionally. But the friends I do have, I spoil because I love them. I would do anything for them [except move back to Utah.. at least not right now ;)] but I treat them how I want to be treated. I take friendships very seriously. Friends are one of the only things people have to get them through rough times. Some people can't count on their family. Or some people count their friends as their family. I know I do.
But the people who I am close to, they know my heart. I know theirs. And I would really REALLY appreciate it, that if you have problems with me or my blog, to voice them directly with me so I can talk to you about it. Please don't go talking to my family about me. My sister heard this comment (the one about me dating) and was so offended. So, come directly to me with your issues with me.Your complaints are about ME, so they don't need to go to anyone else. Besides, my mom can't actually make me do anything anymore since I am a legal adult.. and I live all the way across the country.
I still feel like I have more steam to blow off, but I will do that with push ups. For those of you who support me unconditionally, who make me laugh, and brighten up my days, I love you and I hope you know it. If not, I'll fix that ASAP.

3 comments:

  1. Whatever happened between us, happened internally and could've been solved between us. I don't appreciate you just throwing me under the bus like that. No reason to lay your dirty laundry. I later regretted what I said and I was about to apologize. I wish you would remove this blog. I didn't mean to do it as harassing way and I could've worded it a little better, but there were times I felt like you were way too negative for my taste.
    I unblocked you, if you wanted tto take anythhing with me please take it in private. There is no reason to start a flame war in public.

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  2. Sidney V Gerber
    You know what? You crossed the line. And you blocked me so you automatically made it a problem we couldn't sort out. And instead of acting like a child, saying that I can have someone else "suck my negativity" you could have been an adult and said something that wasn't so offensive. I take that VERY personally. I will not be giving you the opportunity to do it again.
    Fernando Bredariol Gaertner
    12:30am
    Fernando Bredariol Gaertner
    And whatever I said that bothered me about you was also said via a private a message, I never commented in public to make you look bad in public. I never created blog post aiming towards you.........
    Like I said I was going to apologize even before your blog.....
    That's fine but all I ask is that you remove the blog........
    Sidney V Gerber
    12:32am
    Sidney V Gerber
    Too late now. As you see, I don't have a lot of friends, because I don't let them cross me twice. I don't need to waste my time with that.

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  3. I see, so this is the asshole being rude to my sister.
    Leave your blog up and don't change a thing.
    When someone acts like that, they expect to just get away with it. That is not how the world SHOULD work. If you want to be a tool, then you had better not be surprised when someone calls you out on it.
    You sir, are obviously upset that she deleted you in the first place. Only people who somehow feel emotionally connected or entitled to someone get butt hurt when that little icon says "Add Friend" instead of "Friends". My own brother has deleted me about 3 times in the last year and I am not out banging on his front door begging him to add me back or telling him good riddance. You are still obviously keeping tabs on my sister even though she is out of the state and out of your life. You don't work together anymore. You don't talk or see each other anymore. Why would that make you think you should still be Facebook buddies? You never really liked each other. So why the hell does it matter? My suggestion? Leave my sister alone. Unlike her I still live in this state and I am not as nice, patient, or forgiving as she is. I'm the evil twin. I didn't earn that title for no reason. Don't mistake this for a threat because I'm not making a personal threat towards you at all but I am VERY protective of my sister regardless of where in the world she is. Anyone who hurts her immediately has problems with me too.
    You can pretend that you are being "the good guy" by posting the later conversation you had with her, but you only did that because you are upset that she made you look bad. This could have been a non-issue had you kept your fingers to yourself and not bothered to type a damn thing. Or, if you hadn't been a little bitch and blocked her to prevent any lashing out that you KNEW would happen, because she could have resolved with you in that same message you sent so cruelly.
    Right now, she is the one with the male genitalia and that bothers you. I'm happy my sister has learned to stand up for herself and has stopped letting people walk over her. She doesn't deserve treatment like that from someone who doesn't actually know her. As far as I'm concerned, I'm the only person allowed to sass my sister.
    Leave her alone, she has the freedom to talk to, delete, add, kiss, bang, punch, and call out whoever she wants to. Why? Because 'Merica. That is all I have to say on the matter.
    Love you, Sid. I think you did the right thing. At least that makes one of us! ;)

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