Rantings of an Incompetent Dater

What better day to post a FIRST BLOG POST then Valentines Day?! Since it is that special day of luuuuurrrrve, I figure I will post something about my inability to go on a normal date without psyching myself out! Anybody who knows me well, knows that I am about 86% insane.. and 14% caffeine.. It is probably not a very good mix in the dating world, but is TONS of fun when hanging out with friends, or killing time when you're by yourself. This is all fine and dandy, until you have to make a decent first impression on a potential match. This is also a very stressful situation that puts your tummy in knots and
makes your lunch threaten to reappear. Usually, I'm not one to go on dates. At least not human dates since my weekend evenings typically consist of me flat on my tummy in bed, reading and re-reading my favorite books. This makes for a very socially and romantically inept person. Any avid reader can agree with this. Most of the time, we spend out days fantasizing about some hero from one of our books. (Mine consist of pixie kings, princes and angels.. from either the fallen or heavenly persuasion.) Oh! And we cannot forget my obsession with Disney movies! Whether it be books or movies, they AREN'T real, but
I can't tell myself that!
Perhaps something happened from high school to now, but my social life plummeted. Not that I usually complain about being a book worm and Disney freak! (btw, did you know if you switch the D and the S in Disney, it spells my name! ah!) Only when boys start asking me to go out do I realize that I have NO idea what I'm doing. I'm inept at flirting. I cannot be seductive. Physical appearance barely registers on my scale of importance. At least my own appearance.
So, lately when I've gone out on a date, I've had ridiculously high expectations. "Yes, he will be my prince" or "will he behave as so-and-so from such and such book?" "Is he as romantic as this that and the other?" Oh. These poor boys have no idea what they are getting into when going out with me. How high my standards are. My expectations. Therefore, that is part One of my hindering qualities when it comes to dating. Part to in my inability to not make a snap judgment. I've always been pretty sure about what I want in my future hubby. So, if I meet someone for the first time, it's very hard not to make an instantaneous decision if I want to even go out with this person or talk to them ever again.
But, if life were simple and dating was easy, where would the fun be? How would the people who didn't know what they want actually KNOW that the people they marry or date are the things that they do or don't want? And how would those of us who know what we want get assurance that those really are the things we want or need? It would be quite a challenge. If ever I get any tips on how to make this dating thing easier, and suck a lot less, I will be sure to share it.
Happy Valentines day loved ones!! And for those who are like me and are single,
Happy S.A.D.!